Maybe , that girl -the middle one , should do the talking .

Ouh yeah , maybe you should .
Since there's a hundred and million things to talk about ?
Especially when 'IIQAH' becomes the topic of dicussion .
I thought you were different .
I guess I was wrong , not was , I am wrong .
I thought we share a special bond ?
That no other cousins shared among themselves .
I thought I was your 'precious' ?
How could you ?
Calling me a 'plain bitch' ?
Have I ever offended you with such cruel words ?
Have I discontented you ?
I'll always try to make this comfortable for you .
When I know your not , I tried my best to get for you what you needed .
And now , what happened ?
I read your post .
And did you know how much it hurts to read what you've written ?
I tried not to shed a tear , but I know my capabilities .
And it was simply impossible not to do so .
And what was the mistake ?
Maybe I was back-stabbed by own blood related cousins ?
Or maybe , your just the one whose going through PMS .
But I know you ,
you can make words sound so touching , at one point ,
&& make words sounds so hurtful at the other .
But what did I do ?
What mistake did I make to offend you ?
Or make you so angry/sad towards me ?
Yeah , maybe I could sense it beforehand ,
I did not feature you in my friendster account ,
I did say or did anything touching towards you .
I knew that something was just not right .
I knew that this day would come .
I knew all your secrets and just kept my mouth shut .
About , you , AYIE , smoking , Farouq , your family , ineesa , 121 , etc;
And it's not only you ,
but the rest too ?
WHY ? WHAT DID I DO ?
I didn't get the chance to explain .
Maybe people like you , don't deserve my explaination .
But what kills me deep down , is that ,
you are willing to forget about me , in a single blink ?
You think with that blink , your going to forget about me ?
Come on , I thought your mature enough ?
I am wrong again .
We're COUSINS for goodness sake .
Wahlao .
We're still going to meet .
Did that event ever miraculously suddenly appear in your empty brain ?
Your the first one ,
then one by one ,
brains got poisoned with whatever you told them .
SELFISH ain't it ?
My love , she left me .
My b b y , she left me too .
My kak farhanah , she left me and got closer to you .
Don't you think that didn't hurt or even a slight scratch on me , my heart ?
I'm a human being .
I'm just like you , maybe smartter , prettier , cuter , and
I'm suceeding in everything your failing .
Even my ibu&ayah ,
they are not what they use to be .
Your whole family is giving me a cold shoulder .
Why ?
I'm trying to forget about you .
But I can't .
There's a place , a hole ? Idk .
Well , yeah , i guess this does it .
It's the end of everything .
You wanted to fly , so I'm letting you free .

and fee , people stick to their promises , you don't .
fee , I don't need your sympathy .

"iiqah ohh iiqah ,

now you've realised it ?
i've realise sometime ago already ,
yes , it's very true that our love is fading ,
but i'll never giving up to love you everyday single day .
you know i've missed you ,
you know i loved you ,
you know i need you ,
you know i want you ,
like NOW , NOW , NOW can ? =(
how can you say that i forget you ?
since when ? ouch ! that really hurt me bby .
how come you've say something like that ?
same goes to you , where's my iiqah ? where did she go ?
she's always with me but now ? where she go ?
well bbygirl , im sorry if i've hurt you or i make you sad .
infront of you ,
outside of me , im smiling .
in the inside , im dieing .
your still mine , your still my half , don't flew awayy pls .


no matter how many miles you stood away from me , you're always in my heart , thinking of you . (:
i love you , bby , so much .
note that down , bby . "



*I GUESS WRITING IT DOWN WAS MY MISTAKE .


[ I MAYBE A 'PLAIN BITCH' BUT YOUR AN ' OLD-FASHION , IMMATURE SLUT ! ' ]

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